At the time, I was just starting a new full-time corporate marketing role as well as a part-time master's program. I had already committed to leading a new junior high life group and to attending multiple bible study groups. Add family, boyfriend, and friends to the mix and you get no food or sleep. It wasn’t a question of if I should do it, but how I was going to juggle everything. Honestly, I still haven’t figured it out—especially when the entire world is against you. Fortunately, my loved ones have helped keep me from drowning through their constant love and support while the Holy Spirit’s fire fueled me as it burned inside my heart. I saw life from a completely different perspective and I couldn’t stop talking about the glory of God and the way He was/is present in everything.
A few years ago I would have described myself as a passionate person who lacked an object of my passion. I was pessimistic, solemn, moody, I longed for control and for my life to have meaning. I battled through mental struggles because I listened to what the evil one whispered about me in my heart. I cared more about pleasures, success, and material things than I cared about God. I feel like I lived a whole other life before the one I live today. The old me had died, the new was here—thank you, Jesus! He has given me purpose, hope, faith, and love. He is the object of my passion and has taught me to surrender. He has turned me from solemn to joy-filled.
We just got back from visiting my battle bestie in Hawaii—it was the first legitimate vacation we’ve had in years. Being able to spend quality time with Tristan through everything we’ve been pursuing was such a blessing. In today’s world, more often than not, change leads to growing apart. For Tristan and I, we’ve grown together because we’ve embraced the good and discarded the bad. We’re not perfect but we’re building a foundation on rock instead of sand. That’s why I so confidently swoon over him—I thank God every day for this man!
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